A come back.
This will be slow,
you guys.
This will take some time.
& some effort.
I’m okay.
Just okay.
There’s a lot of disappointment,
mainly in myself,
which means there is a lot to work through
but
I know there’s also a lot to look forward to.
I ache quite a bit
and I feel this ache in every bit of my being.
It’s pretty fucking awful.
I let a lot of people down,
i lost sight of a lot of things
but in a handful of weeks this will be but a foggy memory
of suffering and desperation.
Until then,
it’s my reality,
I need to learn how to allow myself to be happy.
It seems awfully simple
doesn’t it?
I lucked out
he has turned out to be an incredibly understanding man…
where things will go
I am not sure
but I can tell you this:
be real
& be vulnerable.
You might find yourself aching
but you will be so glad that you gave it your all.
This will take some time
but I’m back.
